Hi Nikki,
You did a foolish thing by allowing your husband to get along with his ex. You have gifted your marriage to another girl.
I think you must have suffered emotionally during the initial days of the cheating of your husband.
But as days went by, you must have become furious at the cheating of your husband.
And soon, your anger must have turned into apathy and bitterness against your husband.
Prolonged bitterness has made you numb.
Infedility kills marriage. It is sad that your husband did not understand it.
Do not gift away your marriage.
You can make it work. Give one last chance to your husband, only the terms and conditions of no more cheating from him.
If your husband is loyal and loving towards you, you might thaw and become attached to him.
Everything depends on your husband and how much he really wants your marriage to work.
You too must reciprocate when your husband acts loving towards you.
Time is a great healer. It will make you forget your bitterness, and you too might be able to enjoy your married life.